Ok. hectic week.
Ups and downs with emotions.
However, its been better lately =D
So i think i'll come up with something more cheerful.

Jumping and screaming, the exams are soon to be over.
Finally we can all throw our four leaf clover!
Outside the fresh air, the lawn and the grass,
Compared to studying, and looking out the glass.
The feeling is good, the freedom is gained,
Compared to studying, everyone will faint.
Looking at text and squeezing that stuff,
Into the brain, soft like fluff.
This time its long, the break is enjoyable,
Find a job get a life, dont be so gulible.
We need the money, we need the cash,
However, described above money will be dashed.

Hehe, sounds stupid but it was randomly thought up so yeah. =D

Its empty its squeezy its dark in here,
Like a combination of all my fear.
I push i heave i puff i huff,
But all i do is just a bluff.
I wonder why am i in here,
And why doesnt anybody appear.
People are appearing and they can see,
but only some are helping me.
Its making a crack, there's a beam of light,
i can see many people flying a kite.
They appear oblivion to my situation,
perhaps because, they made this creation.

Hehe. Now that things have settled, another will rise.
However, if we can take it slowly, why not?
I though of a stupid literate thing last night while tossing in bed.
Its something like a poem?
But its rather mixed up and stupid so dont laugh.

Holding something so small in my hand,
Looking at it, wonder when it rang.
A press of a button, to see the contents,
After which, it just pretends.
I answer back, to which it applies.
At times of course, it gives me a surprise.
The smallest of things, the climax of flings,
The best of feelings, the worst of clinks.
Sometimes it stays silent, without a ring,
Then i will wonder, what am i doing?
From the past, the present, history is there,
But none of which, which i don't care.
However the most important thing inside to see,
Is not the text is not the crap but the warmth you gave to me.

=)

Mental note. I have only slept 2 hours. Thats a goner.
So far its been a pretty ok chinese new year.
However, i will declare that there has a been few changes in my life within these past few days.
Yes. I will redecide things again.
Yes. I shall change for the better.
No. I will not repeat my past mistakes.
It happened again when i found out about it this early morning.
With the usual ppl of course.(:
I shall say this loud and clear here.
I do not hate them for telling me that.
In fact, i actually appreciate them for telling me.
Because, its still early to nip in the bud and solve this on a good note.
Its safe to say that its mostly my fault since i overlooked this yet again.
Sad to say, i have disappointed myself again this year.
So far, twice already.

To the three people:
I walked away last night because not because i didnt want to solve the problem there.
It was a step for me to think and have some space.
Moreover, i think that all of you would also want to solve it as soon as possible.
So please do not get the wrong idea.

Going to work now. I'll solve this before my second shift.

For things to happen at this time.

Today is like any other ordinary day physically.
But mentally its been quite tense for me.
I keep helping ppl. I love it. =) Its like my pastime.
Or if you could keep it low a little its like a hobby.
But then, i received abit of a dissapointment within this few days.
I feel then even though i have been assisting ppl in their lifes,
i'm not really bringing them forward.
It seems that whenever i help, ppl stop at a standstill.
I can't help but wonder if my help is accepted by everyone.
Its like a rubber band. The more i help to stretch it,
sometimes it just snaps back at you.
A comment was made to me.
that person said that i should get back to my own life and worry about myself more than i worry about others.
I've done some thinking about this.
And i've made a decision.
What worries me most is the fact that my family, friends and other people that i know are under unpleasent times.
I want to pull them out of that. Give them a light to follow or something.
although i may suck as an advice giver or streetwise
I feel that it just pays to provide someone with the company that they need.
To make the person feel happy, thats what i wish for.
As for myself, the only thing i'm contented with is the rate i'm progressing.
And i hope, that everyone else can path a way for themselves.
If not, i'll help them path it.

This time round, I'm going to help you all the way.
Yes you. Hopefully you'll read this cause i'm going to go all out.
Even if you snap at me or whatever, i'll just take it all and put it in a bottle.
Seal it up and let live again.

Ok. here i am for a short post for an update on my life.
First things 1st. I am now working at sakura.
There's a new outlet at lot one and i'm working there.
There might be a chance that a few of my friends join in.
However, no matter how late or little, i cant be more grateful.
Not that the work there is uninteresting but because i want to enjoy working in real life with a friend.
That is one of my forever unfulfiled wants which is soon to be fulfilled. hopefully
Recently i also have been going out each day till late at night.
By right this year i shouldnt be doing that.
But oh well. This is a social need which needs to be completed.
I have not done any marketing or excel studying.
I was just wondering where did all the studying go to.
Everyone is studying but me(as usual)
How would i like that? i have no idea. =D